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Saturday, May 31, 2008
wah bone weary after thequest. disclaimer: what occurs below is exactly what mode it is. don't think too badly of me after reading this!
*beep* rant mode on.
i shall save the best for last. so i won't put it here. ahaha.
walao the day was plagued with troubles from the start. somehow the nebo people failed to collect the registration forms from college side. leading to alot of frustration and delays and whatever. i don't know who to blame, the teacher or the nebo staff. but anyway we filled up the form again and submitted it. and race begins!
turned out that there are like 30 different checkpoints, but each grp is like only given 7. to ensure its totally (well as much as it can possibly be) random. our first stop was botanical gardens. where we had to hunt for like 3 totally obscure plant species out of the entire damn gardens. called yichen to google. but failed. since botanical gardens obviously doesnt have the time to document all the various species all over the gardens. and the passport had these little quizzes on ntuc. where the answers were given on posters on the floor or something, rendering mugging and cheating totally obsolete. i feel so sorry for those people who had to lug around laptops. ahaha.
so after burning 1++ hr looking for these plant species, we headed to the next station. after wenbo suanning the station masters like crazy. for their absolute rigidness at following the rules. they refused to give us the time deduction for this question: just because the word wasn't copied exactly from the poster. bo bian.. have to continue. but at that time we still felt good. quite confident. and so we boarded the bus to fort canning park.
jay walked across a tunnel and climbed alot of stairs: we reached the next checkpoint., there, they gave us this poem. perhaps some of you have heard it before.
teddy bear teddy bear turn around.
teddy bear teddy bear touch the ground.
teddy bear teddy bear climb up the stairs.
teddy bear teddy bear say your prayers.
teddy bear teddy bear turn off the light.
teddy bear teddy bear say goodnight.
so 2 ppl are supposed to spin this skipping rope, 1 guy jump in the middle, 1 guy read the poem. only 4 ppl need to do, so i volunteered to sit out. obvious. what makes it difficult is that the guy jumping has to do these actions as well. so the station masters gave us 3 trials. and said. 1 fail, all fail. so we were thinking.. fine. then wenbo skip first. finished. then xy skip. then he tripped. suddenly the stationmasters step in and say. "thats it! next station." then we were like wth. haha. 1 try only?! so its like obviously make or break in 1 go. i suspect they bs us so we got only one.. but its only a suspicion. no flaming invited! ^^
so we headed to city hall to take to paya lebar MRT. started raining halfway. supposedly we're supposed to head for this fairprice to look for items. at west plaza or something. but somehow we cannot find the checkpoint! win. then we saw this other grp sitting outside... at like 12+? they said they left that one. but they cannot find. so they sit there 1+ hr alrdy. thus, we went look around. called the help line: they say look in the mall. nothing! then suddenly we notice this closed up nebo umbrella. where all checkpoints should be located under. then we and another grp were ?!?!?!?!??!. since there was noone. then we saw the stationmasters: across the road well hidden in a void deck. full marks for camouflage! so we finished the activity. nothing much, pretty basic stuff. name all the household brands and whatever.
2nd last checkpoint. its at pasir ris town park. walking halfway out.. then suddenly started raining. not too heavily, so we broke out our umbrellas and ponchos and kept going. we thought we didnt need take the bus. then halfway, it suddenly start POURING. and instantly drenched all of us totally from head to toe. soaked all the way through my shoes and saturated my socks. now my shoes are seriously black. wash time. then we took the bus... and went to the station. which was piggybacking 20 times. so we carry mingyang and spam. though thats illegal. hahaha. so the guy was nice and gave us 2 min. yay for nice stationmasters. some of them were really ...
super kb. oh well. so we caught the bus back. and headed for DT east. last station! by this time the rain stopped alrdy. and can see abit of sun.
so we reached dt east! and it was drizzling abit. then we headed for our last checkpoint: shuttle run. but we just DAO the whole thing and head straight to submit our logbook. i guess we're hopefully in the top 50%? but heck la. we know confirm lose already based on all the cheating we saw on the way. as long as the super imba routes that some groups get. while we spending 1 hr at botanical gardens, they can just fail their activity and pia. and still win. since their stations are pretty. uh. different.
then we went to collect our goodie bags. weighs a damn ton. but i guess the vouchers were worth it. we daoed the stuff going on in the marquee and headed straight for escape theme park. but there were like only 4 rides worth taking. so we went for rainbow first. something more passive since we just had lunch at KFC. nothing much though. then we went inverter. i was thinking confirm gg. sure vomit. but then it was nothing much too. so we went viking. bleh. the kids behind me were screaming their heads off though. nearly punctured my eardrums. so we went final stop: gokart! waited for 1++ hours. but had a great time. first time gokarter. ahahaha i overtook this other woman. and tried to prevent xiaoyao from overtaking me. but to no avail. i no guts speed down a 45 degree slope la! suicidal people. then i found out from my friend later that some imba (read: cheater) team clocked like 1 hr +. which means they completed 7/6 stations in 2 hrs? even after all the deductions and stuff. at most is only 1+ hour. seriously la. if that isn't some serious cheating i don't know what is. either that or their route is so freaking imba that they can actually..nvm.
*beep* rant mode off.
personally i think thequest became more of a physical activity (read: run like crazy, run like mad to save a few minutes) than an intellectual one. comeon la, all the answers were like on the board? really need mug haha. but rite. the one thing that gets me the most is the way they carry out the competition. the teams were left TOTALLY ALONE for the entire duration of the competition. not even a fac to follow the teams around to ensure safety and whatever. NOTHING. and the rules aren't standardised, routes aren't standardised... its like comparing apples with oranges: and saying apples are better than oranges because its flesh feels better. obviously cannot rite! so maybe if they had like selection rounds, or prizes for the different routes then it might be better. or at least cut the damn number la! so many people how the heck can anyone keep track. but of course i realise that its merely a publicity stunt to get more attention. congratulations: you succeeded. and thats a saturday burnt.
bleh.
*beep* rant mode on.
i shall save the best for last. so i won't put it here. ahaha.
walao the day was plagued with troubles from the start. somehow the nebo people failed to collect the registration forms from college side. leading to alot of frustration and delays and whatever. i don't know who to blame, the teacher or the nebo staff. but anyway we filled up the form again and submitted it. and race begins!
turned out that there are like 30 different checkpoints, but each grp is like only given 7. to ensure its totally (well as much as it can possibly be) random. our first stop was botanical gardens. where we had to hunt for like 3 totally obscure plant species out of the entire damn gardens. called yichen to google. but failed. since botanical gardens obviously doesnt have the time to document all the various species all over the gardens. and the passport had these little quizzes on ntuc. where the answers were given on posters on the floor or something, rendering mugging and cheating totally obsolete. i feel so sorry for those people who had to lug around laptops. ahaha.
so after burning 1++ hr looking for these plant species, we headed to the next station. after wenbo suanning the station masters like crazy. for their absolute rigidness at following the rules. they refused to give us the time deduction for this question: just because the word wasn't copied exactly from the poster. bo bian.. have to continue. but at that time we still felt good. quite confident. and so we boarded the bus to fort canning park.
jay walked across a tunnel and climbed alot of stairs: we reached the next checkpoint., there, they gave us this poem. perhaps some of you have heard it before.
teddy bear teddy bear turn around.
teddy bear teddy bear touch the ground.
teddy bear teddy bear climb up the stairs.
teddy bear teddy bear say your prayers.
teddy bear teddy bear turn off the light.
teddy bear teddy bear say goodnight.
so 2 ppl are supposed to spin this skipping rope, 1 guy jump in the middle, 1 guy read the poem. only 4 ppl need to do, so i volunteered to sit out. obvious. what makes it difficult is that the guy jumping has to do these actions as well. so the station masters gave us 3 trials. and said. 1 fail, all fail. so we were thinking.. fine. then wenbo skip first. finished. then xy skip. then he tripped. suddenly the stationmasters step in and say. "thats it! next station." then we were like wth. haha. 1 try only?! so its like obviously make or break in 1 go. i suspect they bs us so we got only one.. but its only a suspicion. no flaming invited! ^^
so we headed to city hall to take to paya lebar MRT. started raining halfway. supposedly we're supposed to head for this fairprice to look for items. at west plaza or something. but somehow we cannot find the checkpoint! win. then we saw this other grp sitting outside... at like 12+? they said they left that one. but they cannot find. so they sit there 1+ hr alrdy. thus, we went look around. called the help line: they say look in the mall. nothing! then suddenly we notice this closed up nebo umbrella. where all checkpoints should be located under. then we and another grp were ?!?!?!?!??!. since there was noone. then we saw the stationmasters: across the road well hidden in a void deck. full marks for camouflage! so we finished the activity. nothing much, pretty basic stuff. name all the household brands and whatever.
2nd last checkpoint. its at pasir ris town park. walking halfway out.. then suddenly started raining. not too heavily, so we broke out our umbrellas and ponchos and kept going. we thought we didnt need take the bus. then halfway, it suddenly start POURING. and instantly drenched all of us totally from head to toe. soaked all the way through my shoes and saturated my socks. now my shoes are seriously black. wash time. then we took the bus... and went to the station. which was piggybacking 20 times. so we carry mingyang and spam. though thats illegal. hahaha. so the guy was nice and gave us 2 min. yay for nice stationmasters. some of them were really ...
super kb. oh well. so we caught the bus back. and headed for DT east. last station! by this time the rain stopped alrdy. and can see abit of sun.
so we reached dt east! and it was drizzling abit. then we headed for our last checkpoint: shuttle run. but we just DAO the whole thing and head straight to submit our logbook. i guess we're hopefully in the top 50%? but heck la. we know confirm lose already based on all the cheating we saw on the way. as long as the super imba routes that some groups get. while we spending 1 hr at botanical gardens, they can just fail their activity and pia. and still win. since their stations are pretty. uh. different.
then we went to collect our goodie bags. weighs a damn ton. but i guess the vouchers were worth it. we daoed the stuff going on in the marquee and headed straight for escape theme park. but there were like only 4 rides worth taking. so we went for rainbow first. something more passive since we just had lunch at KFC. nothing much though. then we went inverter. i was thinking confirm gg. sure vomit. but then it was nothing much too. so we went viking. bleh. the kids behind me were screaming their heads off though. nearly punctured my eardrums. so we went final stop: gokart! waited for 1++ hours. but had a great time. first time gokarter. ahahaha i overtook this other woman. and tried to prevent xiaoyao from overtaking me. but to no avail. i no guts speed down a 45 degree slope la! suicidal people. then i found out from my friend later that some imba (read: cheater) team clocked like 1 hr +. which means they completed 7/6 stations in 2 hrs? even after all the deductions and stuff. at most is only 1+ hour. seriously la. if that isn't some serious cheating i don't know what is. either that or their route is so freaking imba that they can actually..nvm.
*beep* rant mode off.
personally i think thequest became more of a physical activity (read: run like crazy, run like mad to save a few minutes) than an intellectual one. comeon la, all the answers were like on the board? really need mug haha. but rite. the one thing that gets me the most is the way they carry out the competition. the teams were left TOTALLY ALONE for the entire duration of the competition. not even a fac to follow the teams around to ensure safety and whatever. NOTHING. and the rules aren't standardised, routes aren't standardised... its like comparing apples with oranges: and saying apples are better than oranges because its flesh feels better. obviously cannot rite! so maybe if they had like selection rounds, or prizes for the different routes then it might be better. or at least cut the damn number la! so many people how the heck can anyone keep track. but of course i realise that its merely a publicity stunt to get more attention. congratulations: you succeeded. and thats a saturday burnt.
bleh.
Friday, May 30, 2008
ended up playing the whole damn day away again. AHHH. does not bode well for blocks. nope.
nor does it show that i'm a motivated studious mugger who is determined to score straight a's, pwn sats, and own life in general.
...
then again, i shall stop deluding myself.
start studying! or perish. then again, threats aren't really threats unless a preview is given! in this case, a preview of hell is required.
not looking forward to it.
hair becomimng chlorinated. scratchy and rough. must bring shampoo next time >.< but i bet the chlorine is killing of dandruff-inducing fungus. good i hope.
as long as it doesnt result in balding. EEK.
haha no just kidding, the above was just random stuff and does not reflect truly on yi ren's inner thoughts and feelings.
seriously. but that only applies to the hair paragraph. just random thoughts.
I'M TIRED. as usual. im always tired hahaha. one can never sleep enough. similar for leisure. this however, is not true for mugging.
time to go sleep. need plenty of energy for tmr. wish us luck! hehehe.
nor does it show that i'm a motivated studious mugger who is determined to score straight a's, pwn sats, and own life in general.
...
then again, i shall stop deluding myself.
start studying! or perish. then again, threats aren't really threats unless a preview is given! in this case, a preview of hell is required.
not looking forward to it.
hair becomimng chlorinated. scratchy and rough. must bring shampoo next time >.< but i bet the chlorine is killing of dandruff-inducing fungus. good i hope.
as long as it doesnt result in balding. EEK.
haha no just kidding, the above was just random stuff and does not reflect truly on yi ren's inner thoughts and feelings.
seriously. but that only applies to the hair paragraph. just random thoughts.
I'M TIRED. as usual. im always tired hahaha. one can never sleep enough. similar for leisure. this however, is not true for mugging.
time to go sleep. need plenty of energy for tmr. wish us luck! hehehe.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
wah abit sian. i want to do integration but donno how to do. sigh more excuses. i think i'd better go sch ask teacher ^^ so i can solve. and get better results for blocks. hopes aren't high for CSC though. sighh.
going rain again. and im quite pissed at using this damn korean keyboard that i picked downstairs. unfortunately its one of the few functional keyboards left at home and i have no more to spare. so i have to contend with this extra button between space and the windows key: that has absolutely no function whatsoever. on both sides too. wreaks havoc with touch typing D:
i think starting on gravitation might be more productive. haha. then again theres chem and GP to work on. AHH. not to mention PW. can't wait for TheQuest competition to faster take place. though i haven't mugged at all. aha something to do! but its not going to help blocks at all. i want a new phone~ though its motorola and quite ugly D:
cloudy. looks like rain again. ahh all my holiday plans are going down the drain. due to over over over estimating myself during term time, i've left too much to fate! and im paying the price. damn damn. no motivation at all. anyone interested in going somewhere to study? without a computer. and so i can obtain more help for my subjects! heheh. then i can do better for blocks :D
i wanna go out study... but i need pros to help! since my brother is still lagging in tutorials... can't get his help. perhaps for physics.
thermodynamics and graphing are in urgent need of some brushing up. esp. integration formulas and solving. if not i'm going to phail math test!! ahhh. a home visit! the horror ahahaha.
going rain again. and im quite pissed at using this damn korean keyboard that i picked downstairs. unfortunately its one of the few functional keyboards left at home and i have no more to spare. so i have to contend with this extra button between space and the windows key: that has absolutely no function whatsoever. on both sides too. wreaks havoc with touch typing D:
i think starting on gravitation might be more productive. haha. then again theres chem and GP to work on. AHH. not to mention PW. can't wait for TheQuest competition to faster take place. though i haven't mugged at all. aha something to do! but its not going to help blocks at all. i want a new phone~ though its motorola and quite ugly D:
cloudy. looks like rain again. ahh all my holiday plans are going down the drain. due to over over over estimating myself during term time, i've left too much to fate! and im paying the price. damn damn. no motivation at all. anyone interested in going somewhere to study? without a computer. and so i can obtain more help for my subjects! heheh. then i can do better for blocks :D
i wanna go out study... but i need pros to help! since my brother is still lagging in tutorials... can't get his help. perhaps for physics.
thermodynamics and graphing are in urgent need of some brushing up. esp. integration formulas and solving. if not i'm going to phail math test!! ahhh. a home visit! the horror ahahaha.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
nya. water got cut off yesterday. and today its still rather unclear. though in the morning it was just outright muddy. this means i've showered in muddy water in the morning! ^^
csc was freezing as usual. especially so in the LEP classroom. today it was exceptionally comfortable - due to the latest addition of more cushions! whee. i guess this means less fighting over cushions now when term begins again.
i haven't started anything. revision, mugging, hw.. all left undone. though i distinctly remember thinking that june's the time to get cracking and mug for everything. oh no!
somemore got ppl going overseas. grahhh lucky chaps. stuck in sg with nothing to do except tons of mugging. even building houses beats mugging! man..
oh well. nth else to do now.
then again i could study.
bleh.
csc was freezing as usual. especially so in the LEP classroom. today it was exceptionally comfortable - due to the latest addition of more cushions! whee. i guess this means less fighting over cushions now when term begins again.
i haven't started anything. revision, mugging, hw.. all left undone. though i distinctly remember thinking that june's the time to get cracking and mug for everything. oh no!
somemore got ppl going overseas. grahhh lucky chaps. stuck in sg with nothing to do except tons of mugging. even building houses beats mugging! man..
oh well. nth else to do now.
then again i could study.
bleh.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
bwahaha today went to nlb with pw grp. and found that we're not alone!
got xy's group there. apparently wenbo's in the vicinity. saw minzhe there too! and vice prez of chinese soc. wahaha. hwachongers cant get enough of libraries of any time huh.
meng spam meng type... managed to get 2 pretty detailed sources. and photocopied the remaining 4+++ pages of the rest. cause it was pretty tiring after a while.
and somehow xy managed to photocopy 16 identical pages with the new cashcard our group bought. at least he paid :D chivalry!
went for a 'snack' at 5+. walao its not my fault that i eat so much lor. chensi and yuhan walk so slow.. let my food deprived brain absorb all the various scents. ended up eating..well..alot. ahaha. i suddenly discover the secret to gaining weight! starve yourself for a couple of days.. then follow a pair of girls. who walk very very very slowly. and eat even more slowly. and who walk a few rounds around various shops selling various well. yummy stuff. ahaha. bound to start buying! and eating.
oh and the donuts rock. going back to nlb again... just for the donuts. nah joking. to work harder on EOM. not nice to dao mr tee for too long right? don't worry, we're working on it! will get it done asap and send to you. but its just the sources right.. so i'll guess i'll have to arrange with pw grp to meet some time to determine what exactly are we going to use. (PW members please note! msg me / sms me to discuss a meeting time and place. online also can)
2 more days to discovering first CSC test results! though liujy said our class did well... thats what she said the last time. and i barely passed. doesn't bode well at all! and i think i'd better work much harder. ARRGH. how can yuhan appear so slack and do so much better. rawr. i appear slack and am slack, and thus results are proportionate to amount of effort put in. hmm yuhan must be some sort of secret mugger! ahhh! [the above para is inviting some flaming. bring it people! hahaha!]
at the imba late time of 22.17. i think i shall sleep. after leveling my mage to 41. whee~
got xy's group there. apparently wenbo's in the vicinity. saw minzhe there too! and vice prez of chinese soc. wahaha. hwachongers cant get enough of libraries of any time huh.
meng spam meng type... managed to get 2 pretty detailed sources. and photocopied the remaining 4+++ pages of the rest. cause it was pretty tiring after a while.
and somehow xy managed to photocopy 16 identical pages with the new cashcard our group bought. at least he paid :D chivalry!
went for a 'snack' at 5+. walao its not my fault that i eat so much lor. chensi and yuhan walk so slow.. let my food deprived brain absorb all the various scents. ended up eating..well..alot. ahaha. i suddenly discover the secret to gaining weight! starve yourself for a couple of days.. then follow a pair of girls. who walk very very very slowly. and eat even more slowly. and who walk a few rounds around various shops selling various well. yummy stuff. ahaha. bound to start buying! and eating.
oh and the donuts rock. going back to nlb again... just for the donuts. nah joking. to work harder on EOM. not nice to dao mr tee for too long right? don't worry, we're working on it! will get it done asap and send to you. but its just the sources right.. so i'll guess i'll have to arrange with pw grp to meet some time to determine what exactly are we going to use. (PW members please note! msg me / sms me to discuss a meeting time and place. online also can)
2 more days to discovering first CSC test results! though liujy said our class did well... thats what she said the last time. and i barely passed. doesn't bode well at all! and i think i'd better work much harder. ARRGH. how can yuhan appear so slack and do so much better. rawr. i appear slack and am slack, and thus results are proportionate to amount of effort put in. hmm yuhan must be some sort of secret mugger! ahhh! [the above para is inviting some flaming. bring it people! hahaha!]
at the imba late time of 22.17. i think i shall sleep. after leveling my mage to 41. whee~
Friday, May 23, 2008
got home, checked my mail, then went to check isp.
1 General Paper H1 65.6 B 68 93%
2 Mathematics H2 37.1 U 880 17%
3 Physics H2 47.1 E 438 24%
4 Chemistry H2 59.2 C 389 58%
5 China Studies in Chinese H2 31.2 U 0 0%
an increment of 5.1 marks for CSC. guess its really gg this time for me ahahaha.
not good at all. really have to work harder. though all talk and no work is meaningless, its really hard to get cracking.
especially since its june! its the holidays! wahaha.
though i have no doubt much of this time is SUPPOSED to be taken up by crazy non-stop mugging. but oh well.
considering im not going out at all during the june hols. i hope there'll be more outings of any sort to distract me. distractions are always welcome. lolx.
theres nothing especially spiritual or philosophical to be said today. nothing really. so i'll just cap it here. till next time!
1 General Paper H1 65.6 B 68 93%
2 Mathematics H2 37.1 U 880 17%
3 Physics H2 47.1 E 438 24%
4 Chemistry H2 59.2 C 389 58%
5 China Studies in Chinese H2 31.2 U 0 0%
an increment of 5.1 marks for CSC. guess its really gg this time for me ahahaha.
not good at all. really have to work harder. though all talk and no work is meaningless, its really hard to get cracking.
especially since its june! its the holidays! wahaha.
though i have no doubt much of this time is SUPPOSED to be taken up by crazy non-stop mugging. but oh well.
considering im not going out at all during the june hols. i hope there'll be more outings of any sort to distract me. distractions are always welcome. lolx.
theres nothing especially spiritual or philosophical to be said today. nothing really. so i'll just cap it here. till next time!
Thursday, May 22, 2008
won't blog today.
tmr maybe i'll have something interesting up! haha look forward to it!
tmr maybe i'll have something interesting up! haha look forward to it!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
okay first some random pics to lighten up the mood.
this is korea! in autumn. the trees are so pretty... haha.
this is my wallpaper. either this one or a similar one. this is a town at jeju island: took it off from the top of the mountain. pia all the way to the top cos there supposedly wasnt enough time: haha the view was really good. saw some wild rabbits too! hehe.
this must be eliseus's number one favourite. or alot of girls. haha. LV bear! found in teddy bear museum at jeju: its one of the most expensive ones. there's another diamond bear: lazy upload so many photos at one go. haha.
back to more serious stuff.
this is korea! in autumn. the trees are so pretty... haha.
this is my wallpaper. either this one or a similar one. this is a town at jeju island: took it off from the top of the mountain. pia all the way to the top cos there supposedly wasnt enough time: haha the view was really good. saw some wild rabbits too! hehe.
this must be eliseus's number one favourite. or alot of girls. haha. LV bear! found in teddy bear museum at jeju: its one of the most expensive ones. there's another diamond bear: lazy upload so many photos at one go. haha.
back to more serious stuff.whee. its tuesday! haha. that means 3 more days to friday, 3 more days to hols!
which probably signifies a time of mugging and playing like never before! well not really playing. i'm thinking of starting on some serious work. haha.
which probably signifies a time of mugging and playing like never before! well not really playing. i'm thinking of starting on some serious work. haha.
as all the concerts and performances and whatnot draw to a close. it heralds the beginning of the era of blocks. immediately following that is a brief respite before spammage of promos. which is definitely very, very, very important. in conclusion, the june holidays can be summarised into 5 words.
mug
mug
mug some more!
see, i have my priorities right! but what i do about it is another matter. haha. damn i'm scared i can't go online for pw meeting cos i played too much in the afternoon, and subsequently incurred the wrath of my parents. not good. haha. so its die either way. i should just sleep it off. heh.
2 hours more till pw meeting. hope i can tank until then. or else, im going to be killed! haha. i guess since i don't have any idea on what my EOM should look like, i shall dao mr tee... and wait for sunday to come so i can source for info and get the EOM done asap. haha.
meanwhile.. i shall think of something more productive to work on. my neck hurts pretty badly.. been like that for quite some time already. hope its not permanent.
wishes everyone a pleasant holiday!
learn to take pleasure in mugging people. its the only way! haha.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
its a lazy sunday at home. considering tmr's a public holiday, i feel i have the right to relax.
my mind doesn't feel that way, however. there seems to be this pressing load on my mind that something really really urgent needs to be get done: and soon. *ahem cough cough* pw *cough cough*
i'm working on the survey already, so if any of you are online, please drop me a message on msn so that i can give you something to do. please. haha though no doubt everyone already has alot on their minds, especially the two councillors. not saying that the rest of us dont have anything of course. other than me.
ohh noo. i wonder if its actually humanly possible to study for 9 hrs a day during the june holidays. though i'll probably squander my time away as usual haha. even so, i think i have to make an effort to improve myself so that i can at least do reasonably well for blocks and promos. not to mention SATs. still havfe to study abit for that. and register. and pay. bleh.
feeling quite depressed and down. talk to me to save me from boredom! and help lift me out of this rut of course. so that i can get on with what i urgently have to do. so tempted to just go to sleep until tmr.
i doubt i'll be able to get much done tmr, public holiday and all. i find i cant even study outside like i used to back in high school. before, distractions at home (like my computer) made going out to study very very efficient. now, it seems like i can't study anywhere! i just end up playing. better delete all those handphone games huh. haha.
bleh. got to do pw. help me tank some of the load people! if i break its over for me for the rest of this year. haha. so come on and save me. whee~
my mind doesn't feel that way, however. there seems to be this pressing load on my mind that something really really urgent needs to be get done: and soon. *ahem cough cough* pw *cough cough*
i'm working on the survey already, so if any of you are online, please drop me a message on msn so that i can give you something to do. please. haha though no doubt everyone already has alot on their minds, especially the two councillors. not saying that the rest of us dont have anything of course. other than me.
ohh noo. i wonder if its actually humanly possible to study for 9 hrs a day during the june holidays. though i'll probably squander my time away as usual haha. even so, i think i have to make an effort to improve myself so that i can at least do reasonably well for blocks and promos. not to mention SATs. still havfe to study abit for that. and register. and pay. bleh.
feeling quite depressed and down. talk to me to save me from boredom! and help lift me out of this rut of course. so that i can get on with what i urgently have to do. so tempted to just go to sleep until tmr.
i doubt i'll be able to get much done tmr, public holiday and all. i find i cant even study outside like i used to back in high school. before, distractions at home (like my computer) made going out to study very very efficient. now, it seems like i can't study anywhere! i just end up playing. better delete all those handphone games huh. haha.
bleh. got to do pw. help me tank some of the load people! if i break its over for me for the rest of this year. haha. so come on and save me. whee~
Thursday, May 15, 2008
as the week draws to a close, as well as the semester, i turn my eyes away from the fact that soon the class of 08S63 will be heading their separate ways.
for all everyone says and does, i really hope that everyone feels a sense of belonging, a connection to this family unit that will last a lifetime. just look. its already the end of the first semester: 1 out of the 4 that we will share as one class.
hope for more outings, more bondings. so we can live this time as if it is our last. which it is, of course.
but then. to keep happy, i have decided to derive pleasure from the simpler things in life. making jason throw away my rubbish, being earlier than the NY clan to get to tutorials and lectures in the morning, trying to avoid getting niao-ed and suan-ned by teachers, and irritating everyone in general. ahahaha. and hopefully being able to see everyone smile everyday. even if they don't try to make them do so.
stay happy and pwn everyone! mug tgt play tgt. i hope we have a great jc life ahead of us. even if its studying for 9 hours straight, everything will be so much funner as a class. *hint hint*
so more outings! more bondings! ct and act rep go for it, bring the class together! ahaha.
and guojun feel more confident in yourself leh. you're the ct rep. make decisions like a dictator! wahaha. oh and check your mail. have i sent the group invites yet? >.< there's a little surprise there too, for those who haven't checked yet. hehe.
for all everyone says and does, i really hope that everyone feels a sense of belonging, a connection to this family unit that will last a lifetime. just look. its already the end of the first semester: 1 out of the 4 that we will share as one class.
hope for more outings, more bondings. so we can live this time as if it is our last. which it is, of course.
but then. to keep happy, i have decided to derive pleasure from the simpler things in life. making jason throw away my rubbish, being earlier than the NY clan to get to tutorials and lectures in the morning, trying to avoid getting niao-ed and suan-ned by teachers, and irritating everyone in general. ahahaha. and hopefully being able to see everyone smile everyday. even if they don't try to make them do so.
stay happy and pwn everyone! mug tgt play tgt. i hope we have a great jc life ahead of us. even if its studying for 9 hours straight, everything will be so much funner as a class. *hint hint*
so more outings! more bondings! ct and act rep go for it, bring the class together! ahaha.
and guojun feel more confident in yourself leh. you're the ct rep. make decisions like a dictator! wahaha. oh and check your mail. have i sent the group invites yet? >.< there's a little surprise there too, for those who haven't checked yet. hehe.
Monday, May 12, 2008
hehe so i'm here to blog after quite a long hiatus from blogging.
thats because i've reverted to gaming. not a proper habit to be emulated, especially if you're a almost-to-the-very-edge of failing student like me. hehe who cares :D
probably will fail blocks and get owned. whee~
deco online. hah it's opened again! reached 65 on my slayer when it was hosted by rocksoft.. then it closed down when JC began. lost alot of frens, esp those who spent alot of $ on the game.
but i'm back! and some of my friends are still going strong haha. so will i! watch out world, here i come! lol thats 3 ! marks (now 4) in that para.
okay. physics test on wed. whoo. circular motion! which i have no clue about. and i screwed my math assignment. and csc. please moderate mercifully teachers. hehe.
physics physics. it approaches! and i'm not going to do anything about it. (not really. i'll probably read ABIT tmr)
whee
thats because i've reverted to gaming. not a proper habit to be emulated, especially if you're a almost-to-the-very-edge of failing student like me. hehe who cares :D
probably will fail blocks and get owned. whee~
deco online. hah it's opened again! reached 65 on my slayer when it was hosted by rocksoft.. then it closed down when JC began. lost alot of frens, esp those who spent alot of $ on the game.
but i'm back! and some of my friends are still going strong haha. so will i! watch out world, here i come! lol thats 3 ! marks (now 4) in that para.
okay. physics test on wed. whoo. circular motion! which i have no clue about. and i screwed my math assignment. and csc. please moderate mercifully teachers. hehe.
physics physics. it approaches! and i'm not going to do anything about it. (not really. i'll probably read ABIT tmr)
whee
Friday, May 9, 2008
sorry sorry! i know (i think) i offended some ppl today. or in the past few days. hehe sorry for being insensitive sometimes, please be nice and forgive me haha.
off to work on pw. haha seldom blog now. guess its not cos there's nothing to say, but i don't know what to say.
whee~~
off to work on pw. haha seldom blog now. guess its not cos there's nothing to say, but i don't know what to say.
whee~~
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
tmr's csc test no time to blog too much. though i say i give up.. i think i'd better try. screw math, csc moreimportant. and csc is quite interesting i find. as well as liu. hahaha
time to move fridge hehhe
back from mving fridge, time to start studying csc. whee~~
time to move fridge hehhe
back from mving fridge, time to start studying csc. whee~~
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
heh i don't know why, i just want to say sorry.
sorry for all the stuff i did wrong, knowingly or not. as well as what may come.
i don't know, its better to be honest right. so i will.
personally, back in high school, i never really did sell any tickets for drama productions. hardly. not because i didn't feel any pride in the productions then. i still think we did our best. in fact, im still really proud, for the sellout army daze, and the not-so-sellout lets stop at four, furthest north deepest south etc.
but then, in jc. huangcheng was like. BUY TICKETS. with 2 morning announcements ++ to promote. in order to guarantee the 200+ ppl working had an audience to perform to at victoria theatre. in high school, drama was like what. 60 ppl at max? but we still put up a good show. i hope.
then my entire class (i think) bought tix for huangcheng and went down. to watch the show, to support classmates, there may or may not be more reasons. but the fact is, they went down. but then, as the other performing groups (not sure if this category name is accurate) started promoting their concerts, alot less people go for it. less prestigious? perhaps. but then again, not really. less people? true, but it doesn't seem to justify anything. less aggro promoting? huangcheng didnt force tickets on me. but i know that some groups give their members a certain quota to sell. back in high school, performances were limited pretty much to art lovers. not many people would like go down to support their classmates like in jc. must be the different environment?
i would do my sounds as per normal, perhaps see a few familiar faces in the crowd. still got high with drama members. same for huangcheng. but i don't know, i didn't experience the pressure of selling tickets, especially where money is concerned. i know its a pretty sensitive topic to quite a few. perhaps a primary cause of unwillingness? or reluctance. i guess its a matter of preference to what stuff you like. personally, i like going for arts -- drama like stuff. usually. or dance. cos they interest me. music doesn't really interest me: other than perhaps singing. maybe because i have no musical background, talent? perhaps. but i don't want people to be hurt. 'cause i probably was, way back in lower sec. guess it numbed me, but i don't remember what it felt like anymore.
quite in a dilemma. caught between not wanting to hurt others. 'cause i know about all the effort these groups slave and slog in order for that night. i rmb my drama teacher telling us to put up a good show. one of the reasons he gave would have been the pain one feels, on stage or not, when you hear the 'click-click' of seats closing. people leaving. because they seriously can't stand watching any further. someone who doesn't want to watch your hard work over weeks, months? inevitably going to be very, very, very painful.
thats why. not that im so ego that i believe that no performance can go on without me - i just feel guilty for not being able to go down to support. and the only reason i can give is not my preference. hope you can give me your understanding: i'll be cheering all of you on from the sidelines. and just because i'm doing so doesn't mean i don't love you all any less as friends. hehe. so stay happy, do your best, and bring the house down!
wow such a long post alrdy. i think i'll leave everything else for tmr. there's so much more i wanna say. but theres a lack of time, a lack of motivation to put everything down. this blog was made for 2 reasons mainly. 1 to get people who read this to understand me better, that yiren's life is not all about fun and games (though usually it may appear so) and 2. i want to look back one day and see what my younger self was thinking, to experience it all again. since i can't go back in time, this is the best i can do ro remember the past. i don't want it to get covered with the dust of time, i want to keep my friendships renewed, my jc and high school life bonded with whatever life i'm having in future. i want to keep knowing all the wonderful people i've met. i don't want to lose you all to time. hence this blog.
heh. time to go.
sorry for all the stuff i did wrong, knowingly or not. as well as what may come.
i don't know, its better to be honest right. so i will.
personally, back in high school, i never really did sell any tickets for drama productions. hardly. not because i didn't feel any pride in the productions then. i still think we did our best. in fact, im still really proud, for the sellout army daze, and the not-so-sellout lets stop at four, furthest north deepest south etc.
but then, in jc. huangcheng was like. BUY TICKETS. with 2 morning announcements ++ to promote. in order to guarantee the 200+ ppl working had an audience to perform to at victoria theatre. in high school, drama was like what. 60 ppl at max? but we still put up a good show. i hope.
then my entire class (i think) bought tix for huangcheng and went down. to watch the show, to support classmates, there may or may not be more reasons. but the fact is, they went down. but then, as the other performing groups (not sure if this category name is accurate) started promoting their concerts, alot less people go for it. less prestigious? perhaps. but then again, not really. less people? true, but it doesn't seem to justify anything. less aggro promoting? huangcheng didnt force tickets on me. but i know that some groups give their members a certain quota to sell. back in high school, performances were limited pretty much to art lovers. not many people would like go down to support their classmates like in jc. must be the different environment?
i would do my sounds as per normal, perhaps see a few familiar faces in the crowd. still got high with drama members. same for huangcheng. but i don't know, i didn't experience the pressure of selling tickets, especially where money is concerned. i know its a pretty sensitive topic to quite a few. perhaps a primary cause of unwillingness? or reluctance. i guess its a matter of preference to what stuff you like. personally, i like going for arts -- drama like stuff. usually. or dance. cos they interest me. music doesn't really interest me: other than perhaps singing. maybe because i have no musical background, talent? perhaps. but i don't want people to be hurt. 'cause i probably was, way back in lower sec. guess it numbed me, but i don't remember what it felt like anymore.
quite in a dilemma. caught between not wanting to hurt others. 'cause i know about all the effort these groups slave and slog in order for that night. i rmb my drama teacher telling us to put up a good show. one of the reasons he gave would have been the pain one feels, on stage or not, when you hear the 'click-click' of seats closing. people leaving. because they seriously can't stand watching any further. someone who doesn't want to watch your hard work over weeks, months? inevitably going to be very, very, very painful.
thats why. not that im so ego that i believe that no performance can go on without me - i just feel guilty for not being able to go down to support. and the only reason i can give is not my preference. hope you can give me your understanding: i'll be cheering all of you on from the sidelines. and just because i'm doing so doesn't mean i don't love you all any less as friends. hehe. so stay happy, do your best, and bring the house down!
wow such a long post alrdy. i think i'll leave everything else for tmr. there's so much more i wanna say. but theres a lack of time, a lack of motivation to put everything down. this blog was made for 2 reasons mainly. 1 to get people who read this to understand me better, that yiren's life is not all about fun and games (though usually it may appear so) and 2. i want to look back one day and see what my younger self was thinking, to experience it all again. since i can't go back in time, this is the best i can do ro remember the past. i don't want it to get covered with the dust of time, i want to keep my friendships renewed, my jc and high school life bonded with whatever life i'm having in future. i want to keep knowing all the wonderful people i've met. i don't want to lose you all to time. hence this blog.
heh. time to go.
Monday, May 5, 2008
ohh man. i think im going to fail chem. firstly my mcq is pretty screwed. can't figure out most of the ideal gas qns. secondly, my shapes are dead. thirdly, my graph is doomed. haha. winner!
will not talk about academics. its so boring. hahaha. and also because i dont to dwell on it. ah well. incoming tests beware! i'm going to get owned again. lolx.
man. pw is hardly going to get anything done during the june hols. considering that yuhan's going africa, lijie n mingyang going for council... i wonder if i'll have anything to do. nothing currently though, if nothing pops up, i'll have a pretty free (understatement) holiday. to do all my grinding and mugging.
ahhh thats a precious quarter of jc life over. awww.. soon it'll be j2 and then a's... following which ns. bleh if i enter same uni as any of the girls from my class.. they'll be 2 years my senior D: moral? don't enter the same uni as them :D haha.
but i'd better keep my feet on the ground first. if not i'm probably going to drop out of C1. yes i bet its possible if i slack and grind all the way till promos. then its GG! haha.
seriously the days are getting hotter. NO ITS NOT MY PROBLEM. haha. wonder if the human civilisation can sit this round out. really anticipate the changes that will come. unless it leads to inconvenience or something.
one main reason why im playing all these games and facebook games and etc. is cos my brother is playing too. haha sibling rivalry is really powerful. if only it would extend to studies as well. then i'd probably be able to do much better. haha.
i guess i'll shut down this comp earlier tonite and study csc. that means reading the super stack of notes that i've collected over the days. whaa...thats alot alot alot of stuff to read. aw man.
yawn. tmr's going to be a busy day. since yuhan's bringing her laptop, i wont need to bring mine! hehe (thats a reminder. bring laptop tmr!) not in favour of lugging my laptop around. though its one of the lightest that can be found in the market already. no cd rom drive, no webcam, no nothing. its just a computer, pure and simple. haha. which is why its so small and so prone to overheating. i've seen it melt plastic before. so beware~ lolx.
whoo just like that its already such a long post. random stuff just comes naturally i think.
i think i wanna study psychology in uni. or social sciences. haha cos its pretty cool. of course, if im zai enough, law would be pretty cool as well. if im good enough la. to get an overseas scholarship. just need to be imba imba imba for SATS. haha.
but my mum doesn't want me to take psychology. hehe. guess its quite true, understand what she means, why she doesnt want me to. ah well. i guess i'll make my choice after going for SATS, seeing if i can get any scholarship.
whee~ dinner time xD
will not talk about academics. its so boring. hahaha. and also because i dont to dwell on it. ah well. incoming tests beware! i'm going to get owned again. lolx.
man. pw is hardly going to get anything done during the june hols. considering that yuhan's going africa, lijie n mingyang going for council... i wonder if i'll have anything to do. nothing currently though, if nothing pops up, i'll have a pretty free (understatement) holiday. to do all my grinding and mugging.
ahhh thats a precious quarter of jc life over. awww.. soon it'll be j2 and then a's... following which ns. bleh if i enter same uni as any of the girls from my class.. they'll be 2 years my senior D: moral? don't enter the same uni as them :D haha.
but i'd better keep my feet on the ground first. if not i'm probably going to drop out of C1. yes i bet its possible if i slack and grind all the way till promos. then its GG! haha.
seriously the days are getting hotter. NO ITS NOT MY PROBLEM. haha. wonder if the human civilisation can sit this round out. really anticipate the changes that will come. unless it leads to inconvenience or something.
one main reason why im playing all these games and facebook games and etc. is cos my brother is playing too. haha sibling rivalry is really powerful. if only it would extend to studies as well. then i'd probably be able to do much better. haha.
i guess i'll shut down this comp earlier tonite and study csc. that means reading the super stack of notes that i've collected over the days. whaa...thats alot alot alot of stuff to read. aw man.
yawn. tmr's going to be a busy day. since yuhan's bringing her laptop, i wont need to bring mine! hehe (thats a reminder. bring laptop tmr!) not in favour of lugging my laptop around. though its one of the lightest that can be found in the market already. no cd rom drive, no webcam, no nothing. its just a computer, pure and simple. haha. which is why its so small and so prone to overheating. i've seen it melt plastic before. so beware~ lolx.
whoo just like that its already such a long post. random stuff just comes naturally i think.
i think i wanna study psychology in uni. or social sciences. haha cos its pretty cool. of course, if im zai enough, law would be pretty cool as well. if im good enough la. to get an overseas scholarship. just need to be imba imba imba for SATS. haha.
but my mum doesn't want me to take psychology. hehe. guess its quite true, understand what she means, why she doesnt want me to. ah well. i guess i'll make my choice after going for SATS, seeing if i can get any scholarship.
whee~ dinner time xD
Sunday, May 4, 2008
is it just me or are the days getting hotter?
blehh tmr's chem lecture test. following which is csc test and math assignment. i will study abit. literally. oh well. tutorials are still fine.. though i doubt i can tank much longer. haha. soon will come the time for intensive piaing of tutorials.
june hols is my only chance to catch up with everything. but with pw and everything... i just hope i dont get distracted too much haha. if not im going to die in blocks. DIE. haha.
there's hardly any time to go to the library to borrow books. haven't been reading for a very long time. limited to the books at home. awww..
but if i have the time to read.. i should have the time to study right? hehe.
and yet my mind's filled with thoughts about gaming! hahaha. must work harder. but all talk and no work is just hot air. in a flash its 3.30! hahaha. random writing when i feel like it.
time to end this off and do something more productive. though its not necessarily useful. haha.
blehh tmr's chem lecture test. following which is csc test and math assignment. i will study abit. literally. oh well. tutorials are still fine.. though i doubt i can tank much longer. haha. soon will come the time for intensive piaing of tutorials.
june hols is my only chance to catch up with everything. but with pw and everything... i just hope i dont get distracted too much haha. if not im going to die in blocks. DIE. haha.
there's hardly any time to go to the library to borrow books. haven't been reading for a very long time. limited to the books at home. awww..
but if i have the time to read.. i should have the time to study right? hehe.
and yet my mind's filled with thoughts about gaming! hahaha. must work harder. but all talk and no work is just hot air. in a flash its 3.30! hahaha. random writing when i feel like it.
time to end this off and do something more productive. though its not necessarily useful. haha.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
what if...
you wake up one day to find you're not you?
that the people you 'knew' are
hallucinations?
non-existent?
a figment of your imagination?
reality..isn't real?
what would you do?
terrifying isn't it? the prospect that everything you know, trust, love, believe in might not be real. that you're just having a dream. and you'll be thrown into the complete unknown once you wake up.
we're afraid of loss and the unknown. because everyone wants to feel companionship, friends. we're afraid of the unknown because we'll lose that fragile grip on reality now. where everthing is different, and wrong. because it isn't what we know, what we're familiar with. and we're scared of that.
what if your 'friend' is actually an 'invisible friend' that no-one can see. or that your boss is a non-existent entity? that fear scares me much more than any horror flick.
what if the world...simply doesn't exist? that we're all living in the dream of some vast sleeping being? simply put, we are afraid of the chaos. that's why we have routines, habits, something familiar which we can fall back on when everything starts going wrong. but once these habits, routines cease to function, we have a feeling of loss, a loss of direction. what then?
normally we create new routines, new habits to fill in the loss. so that we can get on with our lives, by following the strict rules and guidelines, so that we don't fall into chaos, don't lose ourselves, don't lose our identities.
that's because we're unique. just like everyone else.
there's a need to stand out, be different, to feel alive. to feel that you're able to distinguish yourself from the rest of the crowd. different, and yet so similar. only then can we consider ourselves as unique, a unique identity amidst the chaos. we want to be different.
okay that was just some random thoughts. doesn't apply to everyone. but well it applies to at least one person. that's me. haha.
now i feel better, can lighten up the mood a little. chemistry test! (haha is this considered lightening the mood?) and CSC + math test! hehehe.
need to study. i dont understand ideal gases at all. DONT WANT TO FAIL ANOTHER TEST :\
not to mention csc. guess i'll flip through on monday and tuesday. bleh since when did smoking didnt get through an IHC - like subject. guess the difference here is that csc is quantity over quality. of course both are preferred...but well i'm only human. haha.
i told myself that i'll relax ytd. nite and work hard in the morning before going for csc talk. but i just drifted over and started gaming. apparently i don't have as tight a rein on myself as i would prefer.
damn. i wish i could have a tight hold over myself. but old habits die hard, and i can't seem to think rationally. then again, if people could, the world wouldn't be so chaotic. but that doesn't mean i shouldn't try right? simply means i have to erase current habits and forge new ones.
sounds so easy. if only it were so, right? haha.
so afraid of losing everyone. haha but that always happens. can pick up, can't let go. just like a little kid. aww..
if humans were like computers...forever rational, forever rigid. what would the world be like? but then its precisely because humans are emotional, therefore this world is interesting. interesting. not necessarily a happy world, a good world. but interesting.
a long time ago. i read a newspaper article about some child genius in america committing suicide. (wait wait im not getting depression. never fear im not contemplateing suicide! for there'll be no-one around to make lectures and tutorials interesting! haha ego sia.) supposedly he did so because he was bored of this world. and the newspapers were writing about how he could have been the next einstein, the next great inventor to change human civilisation. but well. nevermind. just thought that perhaps it may be relevant. some food for though nevertheless.
yuck such a dire, serious, long post. oh wells. i'll now attempt to absorb some ideal gas information. and don't run away from me just because of this post. i'm still the same ok. talk to me more often! haha. chatting always makes my day. but then it leaves precious little for study... but im fine with that. hahaha.
whee~
you wake up one day to find you're not you?
that the people you 'knew' are
hallucinations?
non-existent?
a figment of your imagination?
reality..isn't real?
what would you do?
terrifying isn't it? the prospect that everything you know, trust, love, believe in might not be real. that you're just having a dream. and you'll be thrown into the complete unknown once you wake up.
we're afraid of loss and the unknown. because everyone wants to feel companionship, friends. we're afraid of the unknown because we'll lose that fragile grip on reality now. where everthing is different, and wrong. because it isn't what we know, what we're familiar with. and we're scared of that.
what if your 'friend' is actually an 'invisible friend' that no-one can see. or that your boss is a non-existent entity? that fear scares me much more than any horror flick.
what if the world...simply doesn't exist? that we're all living in the dream of some vast sleeping being? simply put, we are afraid of the chaos. that's why we have routines, habits, something familiar which we can fall back on when everything starts going wrong. but once these habits, routines cease to function, we have a feeling of loss, a loss of direction. what then?
normally we create new routines, new habits to fill in the loss. so that we can get on with our lives, by following the strict rules and guidelines, so that we don't fall into chaos, don't lose ourselves, don't lose our identities.
that's because we're unique. just like everyone else.
there's a need to stand out, be different, to feel alive. to feel that you're able to distinguish yourself from the rest of the crowd. different, and yet so similar. only then can we consider ourselves as unique, a unique identity amidst the chaos. we want to be different.
okay that was just some random thoughts. doesn't apply to everyone. but well it applies to at least one person. that's me. haha.
now i feel better, can lighten up the mood a little. chemistry test! (haha is this considered lightening the mood?) and CSC + math test! hehehe.
need to study. i dont understand ideal gases at all. DONT WANT TO FAIL ANOTHER TEST :\
not to mention csc. guess i'll flip through on monday and tuesday. bleh since when did smoking didnt get through an IHC - like subject. guess the difference here is that csc is quantity over quality. of course both are preferred...but well i'm only human. haha.
i told myself that i'll relax ytd. nite and work hard in the morning before going for csc talk. but i just drifted over and started gaming. apparently i don't have as tight a rein on myself as i would prefer.
damn. i wish i could have a tight hold over myself. but old habits die hard, and i can't seem to think rationally. then again, if people could, the world wouldn't be so chaotic. but that doesn't mean i shouldn't try right? simply means i have to erase current habits and forge new ones.
sounds so easy. if only it were so, right? haha.
so afraid of losing everyone. haha but that always happens. can pick up, can't let go. just like a little kid. aww..
if humans were like computers...forever rational, forever rigid. what would the world be like? but then its precisely because humans are emotional, therefore this world is interesting. interesting. not necessarily a happy world, a good world. but interesting.
a long time ago. i read a newspaper article about some child genius in america committing suicide. (wait wait im not getting depression. never fear im not contemplateing suicide! for there'll be no-one around to make lectures and tutorials interesting! haha ego sia.) supposedly he did so because he was bored of this world. and the newspapers were writing about how he could have been the next einstein, the next great inventor to change human civilisation. but well. nevermind. just thought that perhaps it may be relevant. some food for though nevertheless.
yuck such a dire, serious, long post. oh wells. i'll now attempt to absorb some ideal gas information. and don't run away from me just because of this post. i'm still the same ok. talk to me more often! haha. chatting always makes my day. but then it leaves precious little for study... but im fine with that. hahaha.
whee~
Friday, May 2, 2008
hehe my arm's no longer itchy. whee~
going to slack off today. then tmr is pretty much going to be burnt unless i pick up / gain the motivation to do something in the morning before csc talk. like math? or chem? haha stupid carelss mistakes D: if not i could probably get a B at least. not careful enough. sigh.
short post. im off to patch maple. sorry if im especially obnoxious today. haha. don't want to make anyone too angry with me D:
so be nice and forgive and forget k? *bows*
well anyway, its a pleasant friday. heh. but chem lecture test approaches, not to mention csc and math tests. dont want to fail chem, math. bleh D:
sucess doesn't come naturally though. unless...well.. never mind. it just doesn't come haha. must study!
after i patch maple story. haha. im serious you know. well i doubt if it'll be successful though. now's the time to study! not maple!
perhaps during the hols. but anyway, i'll patch it first. :D
maybe i'll blog later.
maybe.
going to slack off today. then tmr is pretty much going to be burnt unless i pick up / gain the motivation to do something in the morning before csc talk. like math? or chem? haha stupid carelss mistakes D: if not i could probably get a B at least. not careful enough. sigh.
short post. im off to patch maple. sorry if im especially obnoxious today. haha. don't want to make anyone too angry with me D:
so be nice and forgive and forget k? *bows*
well anyway, its a pleasant friday. heh. but chem lecture test approaches, not to mention csc and math tests. dont want to fail chem, math. bleh D:
sucess doesn't come naturally though. unless...well.. never mind. it just doesn't come haha. must study!
after i patch maple story. haha. im serious you know. well i doubt if it'll be successful though. now's the time to study! not maple!
perhaps during the hols. but anyway, i'll patch it first. :D
maybe i'll blog later.
maybe.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
itchy itchy itchy! can't concentrate at all. ahhhhhh!
looks like im not going to be able to sleep tonight if i don't get rid of this itch. pain over itch? haha.
swollen and hot. gragh. what the hell did that to my arm? cursess..
3rd paragraph. comeon... must work harder...
ITCHY SIA.
bleh.. not a good day. constant itch that's bugging me. hope its over tmr. or i'm going to be scratching like i've got fleas. doesn't help that the swell is near my armpit. ewww disgusting haha. lucky its on my arm though. if it should be there at all.
going to apply a cold pack to it so i can at least have some temporary relief. hope i can use the time to work on my csc. D: why does it have to be due tmr! (suffering the consequences of procrastination)
and theres a bsp talk on saturday. nooooo~ another perfectly fine saturday burnt.i can't remember the last time since i had a proper saturday. man..
and apparently the next week i have 3 tests. chem, csc, math. all of which happen to be graded. SIGH.
hope my smoking can make the grade this wed. for csc test. it was so easy to smoke an A1 in IHC... what happened? just because its chinese? haha. but first there's that chem. test to take care of. getting the class test back tmr.. guess its gg to me unless i can get some, most of the mcq right. considering im confident that my strucutred is seriously screwed.
fishes dying in droves. NEED A FILTER!! hahaha. only the eel doesn't seem affected. wonder why huh. sigh.
itchy itchy.
but csc awaits! not a very good trade off... sigh. i'd much rather be playing.
play> sleep> relax> reading> stoning> mugging> chemistry> physics> GP> math> ...(insert n subjects here) >csc
csc. AW.
looks like im not going to be able to sleep tonight if i don't get rid of this itch. pain over itch? haha.
swollen and hot. gragh. what the hell did that to my arm? cursess..
3rd paragraph. comeon... must work harder...
ITCHY SIA.
bleh.. not a good day. constant itch that's bugging me. hope its over tmr. or i'm going to be scratching like i've got fleas. doesn't help that the swell is near my armpit. ewww disgusting haha. lucky its on my arm though. if it should be there at all.
going to apply a cold pack to it so i can at least have some temporary relief. hope i can use the time to work on my csc. D: why does it have to be due tmr! (suffering the consequences of procrastination)
and theres a bsp talk on saturday. nooooo~ another perfectly fine saturday burnt.i can't remember the last time since i had a proper saturday. man..
and apparently the next week i have 3 tests. chem, csc, math. all of which happen to be graded. SIGH.
hope my smoking can make the grade this wed. for csc test. it was so easy to smoke an A1 in IHC... what happened? just because its chinese? haha. but first there's that chem. test to take care of. getting the class test back tmr.. guess its gg to me unless i can get some, most of the mcq right. considering im confident that my strucutred is seriously screwed.
fishes dying in droves. NEED A FILTER!! hahaha. only the eel doesn't seem affected. wonder why huh. sigh.
itchy itchy.
but csc awaits! not a very good trade off... sigh. i'd much rather be playing.
play> sleep> relax> reading> stoning> mugging> chemistry> physics> GP> math> ...(insert n subjects here) >csc
csc. AW.
its a hot, tiring sunday.
no, actually its a public holiday that resembles a normal sunday. have to go school tmr. evil csc essay! struggling along. heh finally got the first paragraph done. what remains is paraphrasing and transferral of information from comp screen to paper. oh wells.
not to mention im constantly being distracted. blogging for example. perhaps i should shut down my computer and go mug fer a while. that would be best i guess. yeah. i think i'll do just that.
after this post of course.
however, it suddenly occurs to me that all my info is on the comp. and i have no intention of spamming more printed paper. waste my printer ink D: damn it looks like im stuck in front of the comp. hahaha.
man, the sky's cloudless and blue today. when i was young i rmb looking up into the sky one day. and it was so blue it was almost purple. haha one of my only childhood memories remaining. lucky its a pretty one. heh.
seriously its steaming. not a hint of a breeze, my fan seems to be blowing hot air. ahhhhh!
its like a sauna. + csc? i just wanna turn on the air-con and sleep.
but as if my csc grades weren't bad enough: i really had better submit punctually at least. hot hot hot!!
i wanna take a nap D: but i'll probably wake up at 7 and be too sleepy to start work till 8. then i'll slowly work until like 12? and have a horrible day at school tmr. bleh. wonder what we're having for ct session tmr. hope its fun. lolx.
bought some fish to accompany the eel. hope they don't kill the eel or vice versa. some shrimps too. grow eel grow! haha.
ouch my arm is still swollen. for some reason. really very, very, very irritating. grr. wish i could lance it. probably do more harm than good though.
don't feel like working now. shall spam a little more.. then i have to go back to csc D:
i guess there like 3 pages to go. thats like 4 ++ sides to write. aww. still must rephrase and everything. i don't wanna do already! haha.
the days are pretty warm. stupid global warming. the equatorial regions are going to be hardest hit. more hot. oh noes. good business for ice companies. not so good for hot drinks. ah well. i guess hanging out at the mall will be good.
perhaps i should send my info to my laptop and take it to the reading room downstairs. at least its air-conditioned. bleh hot.
not a cloud in sight. i'm repeating myself i think. longest post ever. must be because of the weather.
ok back to csc D:
msg me on msn to save yiren from boredom! haha.
no, actually its a public holiday that resembles a normal sunday. have to go school tmr. evil csc essay! struggling along. heh finally got the first paragraph done. what remains is paraphrasing and transferral of information from comp screen to paper. oh wells.
not to mention im constantly being distracted. blogging for example. perhaps i should shut down my computer and go mug fer a while. that would be best i guess. yeah. i think i'll do just that.
after this post of course.
however, it suddenly occurs to me that all my info is on the comp. and i have no intention of spamming more printed paper. waste my printer ink D: damn it looks like im stuck in front of the comp. hahaha.
man, the sky's cloudless and blue today. when i was young i rmb looking up into the sky one day. and it was so blue it was almost purple. haha one of my only childhood memories remaining. lucky its a pretty one. heh.
seriously its steaming. not a hint of a breeze, my fan seems to be blowing hot air. ahhhhh!
its like a sauna. + csc? i just wanna turn on the air-con and sleep.
but as if my csc grades weren't bad enough: i really had better submit punctually at least. hot hot hot!!
i wanna take a nap D: but i'll probably wake up at 7 and be too sleepy to start work till 8. then i'll slowly work until like 12? and have a horrible day at school tmr. bleh. wonder what we're having for ct session tmr. hope its fun. lolx.
bought some fish to accompany the eel. hope they don't kill the eel or vice versa. some shrimps too. grow eel grow! haha.
ouch my arm is still swollen. for some reason. really very, very, very irritating. grr. wish i could lance it. probably do more harm than good though.
don't feel like working now. shall spam a little more.. then i have to go back to csc D:
i guess there like 3 pages to go. thats like 4 ++ sides to write. aww. still must rephrase and everything. i don't wanna do already! haha.
the days are pretty warm. stupid global warming. the equatorial regions are going to be hardest hit. more hot. oh noes. good business for ice companies. not so good for hot drinks. ah well. i guess hanging out at the mall will be good.
perhaps i should send my info to my laptop and take it to the reading room downstairs. at least its air-conditioned. bleh hot.
not a cloud in sight. i'm repeating myself i think. longest post ever. must be because of the weather.
ok back to csc D:
msg me on msn to save yiren from boredom! haha.