... while everyone's out for cca, i'm at home slacking.

though there's this unpleasant nagging feeling that there's something left undone.
which is probably that math lecture test looming next monday! (oh noes)

i want to do my homework. but somehow i can't pick up my pen. sometimes doing work is as easy as picking up a feather; other times (like now) i cant find the motivation to do anything. work included.

can't stop. gotta keep moving.

its like falling asleep in the middle of a snowfield: once you stop, you know you won't be getting up again.

if i lose the momentum now, it'll be almost impossible to survive the rest of jc. can't stop. gotta keep moving.

at the start of the year, when i joined huangcheng. i wondered why there were so few J2 seniors left. after all, isn't huangcheng a massive project with hundreds involved?

now, i realise why. people are leaving in droves, once the curtain closes, a mass exodus occurs.

personally, im already doubting my decision to stay. what's going on here?

perhaps there isnt that bonded spirit in huangcheng that comes from spending session after session after session with your team mates. its as if there's no renewal after huangcheng ends, the curtain falls. i guess this is where the journey ends for many.

perhaps this is where huangcheng fails: the journey seems to end just as the curtain falls. people don't see a future anymore in remaining in huangcheng. thus they go for other more worthy pursuits like music, dance, sports, etc. anything where they can keep working, keep doing stuff together as a team.

ah well. im not going to stop. i'll just have to find alternatives to keep me occupied then.

must keep moving.