i've had it with failures.

personally im fine failing everything and being an absolute, total failure in life: unless no-one is affected.

however, if by not working to the best of my ability leads to me hurting others, i'd seriously better doing everything better.

last year i did pretty well: guess it got to my head. didn't really consider the 15% ace, 10% OP which i pretty much maxed out: 25% is a lot a lot of points.

now in JC things are different; no more ACE, no more OP to save me now. seriously things had better start getting back on track.

its high time i got some good results to satisfy myself, satisfy my parents. sibling rivalry plays a pretty big role here too. can't afford to lose. don't want to lose. D: competitive me.

same for my parents. ahaha i've been hiding pretty alot from them. if i want to come clean, i'd better make some valid improvements before breaking the news. 3.7% out of a possible 10% is pretty low.

won't, can't let my parents down for all the effort they've been putting in: this is the final straw. its seriously time to get serious with my academics. i made a promise to myself this year, and i'm not about to break it.

promises are meant to be kept; not broken.

its time to get serious now.