its so ironic how the human heart works. we try so hard to be accepted by the general community try so hard to become one with the group. then again, deep inside, most people want to stand out form the common rabble, to distinguish yourself from the rest. arrgh this is so confusing.

its getting increasingly difficult to try and stay happy every day now. it seems so much easier to put on a dao face and go around living. but still, life isn't about making all the easy choices right. sometimes i think i make things difficult for myself on purpose haha.

even though this is a blog and im supposed to be able to vent all my thoughts out, i still cant, unfortunately. because this is public. one of the benefits of keeping a diary and not a blog. i guess my house environment is not really conducive towards studying. not at all. and i havent started on csc despite what i said last night. >.<

so much so much to do.