tsk its 4pm already. but it looks like its 5 or 6 already outside. its so dark cause of the rain.

i'll dao physics for a while and write abit. just to relax i guess.

okay. what to write about today...

ah.

inspiration from a thought i had when i was showering a while ago. um i vaguely remember during the fac head elections, junshyang asked the question:

'if me and tengseng were drowning, and you could only save one, who would you save?'

lianseng: i'll jump in and die together with you.

good to gain support, better for laughs. but thinking about it, is that really uh. what someone would do?

reminds me of the original question. if you, your wife, and your mother were on a ship. and the ship sank halfway. and you are holding 1 lifejacket, who would you save?

the most common answer is usually that 'i'll wait for that time to come before deciding'

the joys of procrastination. no need to deal with all the mental trauma now, especially when it may not even come to pass at all.

but if it were you, who would you save?

actually, thinking about it, there's another option. if you could sacrifice yourself to save both, would you?

in my opinion, its the least troubling (well for the person involved) way out. the most. cowardly route if you will. but of course i realise it takes a lot of bravery and courage for someone to make that choice. but i still think it has the least(?) toll for the choice-maker. can't confirm it, because i don't really know what'll happen if you make that choice. what lies on the other side of the veil?

its a way of avoiding survivor's guilt i suppose. but it shows how much you prize others above you. and subsequently how low to consider your value to be.

there are other factors like filial piety and all that stuff, but it'll be too complicated if i take that into account. so i'll take the slacker's route and disregard it altogether.

personally, i find the choice of self-sacrifice the lesser of the evils. if i had the choice, that is. though i probably wouldn't say the same if i had to be the one being rescued. haha. how hypocritical.

ho hum. this post has grown to quite a long one already.

there's just one full paper (and a half) left. ohoho then its chalet ♥ then sabbaticals ♥♥ then holidays ♥♥♥♥. (obviously omitted something. hm i wonder what)

i won't say much about math today. but for those who want to know, i think i (and probably am) am dead. enough said. lets move on.

so a year has gone by. well almost. and its not too long now before everyone parts ways again. i guess i'll post this again sometime next year? around this time, probably after a's. but i'll post it now anyway. its been a great year with everyone. despite some not-so-great moments, i seriously hope i can remember everyone. oh. wonderful idea. i shall edit the profile box and put something new! ^^ for the guy with the poor memory (me).

oh yes. and one last thing. don't worry, i know how to take care of myself. even if i may uh. be too helpful sometimes. gomen, gomen, (thats sorry) if i've caused you trouble. otherwise, don't reject a kind offer. looking a gift horse in the mouth is rude you know! okay kidding. haha.