yiren is feeling a little blue now. what with all the things that are happening. things are getting rather depressing here. :(

i think about has what just went by, and can't help but um. reconsider the rights and wrongs about the stuff i did.

well i know that hindsight is pretty much useless, but it supposedly helps future developments. in actual fact, it does help future developments.

so, i shall refrain from posting about how little i wrote for csc sbq, how i think i wrote out of point for gp, how i think im going to fail chem and the like.

so everyday i (referring to oneself in the third person is not appropriate. thats for royalty.) try to put on a brave smile and go to take my exams. and an open mind supposedly boosts your effectiveness!

well thats what i did uh. *thinks abit* 4, 5 yrs ago? to go through psle. but i guess times are different and substance must be obtained through studying. oh well.

round 2 1/2 over. exactly halfway through. though the fun is just beginning~

on a side note, i was thinking about background music. personally, i stop/pause/mute or whatever necessary to stop any background music for whatever site im surfing. that includes the class blog, this blog, whatever blog that has music.

but then, its always better to believe that someone's out there right? just like uh. there's probably someone in that wide, wide world who's probably thinking of you right now. though you probably aren't aware of his/her existence at the moment. perhaps for the rest of your life. who knows?

but well its a form of comforting self-delusions? can't be all too bad can it. haha.

anyway i was thinking quite a bit before i went to sleep (ooh look at the time its almost nine already). not very much was encouraging. imma in deep trouble now i think. but i don't have too much time to spare to make a long rambling post. sigh.

and some things are easier thought than said. or typed. even though this is supposedly a place to air all that choked up air inside, im kinda caught in a dilemma. to post? or not to post? i don't know what sort of impact it'll bring (if any). status quo isn't fine with me! but i don't want to risk screwing up my progress so far. grrgh. i wish i knew what to do.

but a kind word would be nice. ^^