whoo. its kinda difficult to blog while playing.

and with the fingers of my right hand quite swollen from all the excessive arrow-shooting today.

ahh okay. so what was i thinking about. oh yes.

um. so while trying *desperately* to balance blog and play, im going to take a long time to get this out. hope it's coherent at the end at least.

alright. so on the bus right. i had nothing to do. so i was wondering about something queer.

if you want someone to continue to dream big dreams? how do you say it? fine. maybe im just noob. but i was thinking originally that:

keeping dreaming big. sounds strange rite. so i thought. and aha. to keep dreaming big. yup. problem solved.

so on to the post proper. i think that people should keep dreaming big. although it may hurt really badly if you take it too far and start expecting success when it isn't yet confirmed. and fail.

but after some time i realise that even for dreams. you need capital. you know? the basics. like if lets say you dream of swimming the english channel in the shortest time possible. you must at least know how to swim.

but the line blurs for less tangible things. like, how exactly do you gauge your talent in a certain field? so many variables out there. its not a simple MCQ or anything anymore. things..get complicated.

and sometimes, i wonder if i have the capital to keep dreaming. like, if i fail. im afraid i'll be crushed so badly i can't stand again.

...

but thats on bad days. sad, depressing days. oh well. there are days when everyone feels blue and under the weather right.

those days are quite um. dangerous? in a sense. though i find sleeping it off works good. chatting works fine too.

ah whatever. must move away from depressing thoughts. focus on what's at hand! which is quite a lot. haha.