- hope & a little faith -

dunno la. maybe im a sucker for punishment and pain in general.

明知道放不下
明知道会被伤
明知道不可能

却这样走下去

可能我笨
可能我傻

但是我知道
这是我要的

当一切即将化为灰烬的时候

我想到的

只有你

where 你 refers to you. and anyone, everyone else who reads this.

不懂啦. dont know why everyone keeps talking about searching for purpose, for meaning, for whatever.

真的. 我这么想是有原因的. 东西...不一定要复杂. 为什么不能是简单的？简单..不好吗？

也许我是错的. 我常常错. 但是，至少我知道我在走我的路，

我在走我要的路.

而这样，就足够了.

你呢？

okay. should not write any more emo stuff. since its 12:02 am. a new day has begun!

i shall write about mundane stuff to lighten the mood.

firstly: found my headphones! wooohooooo! made my day early in the morning :)

and i realised that lolipops are SCAM. welfare rm ftw please. no cola flavour in a 3.30 pack of 10 lollies. wth seriously. i will buy more from council. expect more business from a certain individual (me)! because i know i still owe some people lolipops :D

and thats about it for the day. really. got alot of other emo, introspective stuff that i will file away.

for the pHd post due in a couple of weeks. meanwhile, its time to get irrational and insane. things have to be done! YEAH.

i will probably never be this close to anyone again. lack of a common topic = no conversation.

= no renewing of relationships

= expiration

= gg

yeah simple equation. reminiscing about the past can only take you so far. seriously. 很快就会各走各的.

not to say that i'm not hoping for a miracle to happen.

but miracles don't happen without work. and i don't know where to start. i'm too afraid to start. 不要再失去了 please.

then again, its back to the old question.

到底是要曾经拥有，曾经痛过？

还是隔离自己，封闭自己，保护自己呢？

think the choice should be obvious.

但是，你愿意吗？