whoo going to take a hot shower! love hot showers :)

in order to prepare for it, i've left the heater on for 1/2 an hour already :D i like showering in 50 degree water. at least i think its 50. hotter than my laptop at times i think.

bt i always finish all of it ): it just seems never enough. i think i could shower for a few hours if i had the hot water to last la!

which is what i did the last time i went to a hot spring (in korea). wah imba shuang. could have relaxed there all day.

until i die of dehydration.

anyway, faster post finish this entry, then finish my update email, go shower, check for new manga, then go to sleep. end of monday.

oh oh and sian la! my laptop is infected with some stupid virus because of cheryl's thumbrive. first got that 'hacked by moozilla' crap, now this?! laptop -> virus magnet sia. cheryl (and the world in general) should take more care of their thumbdrives. or better still, dun use thumbdrives. please.

or at least make sure they're safe before throwing them into a computer.

sian theres only 20 days (less actually because of sundays and good friday) of huangcheng left!! omg im going to miss everyone so much.

cannot enter pHd mode now. cannot. still got alot to do. must stay high. must stay happy. must keep motivating people (and giving out lollipops).

even though there's this nagging feeling that this time is coming to an end, i've got to part with everyone soon. whyyy?!?!

looking back, i rmb there were alot of things i wanted to last forever.

like camps, holidays, (most notably the trip to korea), and the like. but i guess that was because i couldn't see beyond the pain of losing everyone. after moving past all these things, i've got to know all the great people in huangcheng, in jc. things would have been very different if i got my way and stayed in that moment forever.

even so, it doesn't make letting go any easier. i don't want to let go ):

in the past i was quite a loner. now still am, at heart, partially. still not very good with the spoken word. i stutter and get nervous and turn red and all that when i'm taling to > 5 people at one go. i'm not a born speaker. really!

so i'm really grateful to have more people i can call friends now. you have no idea how much it means to me. life wouldn't be the same, wouldn't be worth living without everyone. no words can express my thanks. kinda left speechless. i shouldn't have got myself into this position.

okay cannot emo. high! HIGH! will write finish and take a hot shower. dun think so much.

thinking is painful. 我只想要简简单单的快乐。有时候，快乐可能完全看不到。

但是，有时候，快乐也可以很简单。